Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Possibly the Last Post

It has been official for a bit now--Heller has written us and told us that it will not be reimbursing any of our expenses, nor paying our stipend. I was crossing my fingers and hoping for better, but the letter confirmed what I had always suspected would happen.

Certainly, I am not sure how I feel about the somewhat condescending advice that we should seek reimbursement from our new firms if we have new firms to go to--my first reaction was, "Oh, really?" If I could, I would. I am also puzzled that the letter referred to a phone call I don't remember having. I don't know about the rest of you, but I did not receive any phone calls or messages after Heller made its decision to dissolve. I was completely in the dark, and as I understand it, so were all of you.

Am I upset about all that has happened, especially how we were completely ignored until it was the scheduled date for our first stipend installment? Yes. Am I going to do anything about it, like sue Heller? I'm pretty focused on trying to find another job, or figuring out where to volunteer legally while I simultaneously work at McDonald's to pay the bills. I've received one e-mail asking whether I or anyone else has thought about suing, and while I may consider it, I certainly will not be the one leading the pack. I'm ill, and I'm exhausted.

Which brings me to this blog. I started this blog so that we could talk to each other; maybe a forum would have been a better idea to effect that goal. I always knew I could not handle this blog alone--I knew I would go crazy if I had to always think about Heller. I cannot handle feeling "negative" for long periods of time. However, no one I have asked has felt up to being a co-administrator of this blog, and believe me, I understand.

So I'm making this my last post, but I know that plenty of you still feel that this situation is unresolved, and I hope you feel comfortable using the comments space below to vent or comfort others or whatever you feel like doing. Anonymous comments are allowed on this blog, in case you haven't tried commenting before.

Again, I hope everyone the best, and that so many good things will happen to us in the future that we will have no choice but to put all of this behind us.

Signing out,
Heller No More